Running in Circles

This one is for me, a self written blog to get a better understanding of myself… Stop thinking for your inner child, being afraid. Think as the women you are now, like you are naturally in your purpose. The past is the past so don’t let it define your future. Give life a chance, don‘t let your past trauma define how you look on future situations or blessings.

Everyone in there 20 somethings goes through this phase of life when we ask ”what’s my purpose in life?”. Trying to discover oursleves can be something so draining and lead to some serious imposter syndrome. I should know right I’m one of the 20 something girls gong though it. Going through an intense amount of highs and lows in life is beyond confusing at this age. For exampe I should be at an all time high right? I just graduated with 2 degrees, hosted my first big fashion show, succesfully running 2 women/black owned businesses, life is booming right? All I can say to that is ”LOL”, even though you would think I’m at a high point in my life, I’m honestly competley lost with no sense of direction on whats next for me. Should I, travel the world, but with what funds? Fall in love, but people my age don‘t believe in that? Be a city girl? Even though the streets not for me. Or maybe even settle down, I mean some of our grandparents found love at our young age and still did it all. Who knows, cause I definitely don‘t.

20 somethings get so caught up in trying to make everyone in our lives proud of us , or trying live up to our own anxious versions of ourselves we created with our anxiety based created scenarios from our very very very vivid imagination. We do all of these things instead of just doing what makes YOU truly happy and even being selfish with ourselves. Sometimes that’s hard truthfully said, sometimes our selfish decisions can effect ones we truly do love in the most negative way, or leave us isolated and alone.

So what’s your purpose? Sometimes our purpose is what we lack in our lives, just for some odd reason its something we can give give out but what we can’t believe we can receive.

For example you can always give words of affirmation, and give love to others, but you can’t accept that in your own life that you are loved, or ever deserve to be loved, correctly. Why do we turn away our own blessings like that? Why can’t we believe that those good things happen to us to?

Your purpose, could just be something you overlook about yourself or don’t think is your calling or gift. So we neglect it or think little of it, instead of nurturing it and expanding our purpose into something bigger. Just because your purpose is different than the next, something you didn’t expect or isn’t praised by others the way you expected , doesn’t mean it’s not your blessing! We must learn to be patient and keep trying to expand and nurture our purpose into more than what it is in that moment. It may be small but it could grow into something might with the right mindset and dedication.

We must stop trying to base our lives off of what others have, what others want from us, or what we see others doing with their lives, especially thinking that our life plan is the same as others . Start living for you, if you want something go after it! Your business plan didn’t work alter it and try again. If you love someone dont let them go. Live every day as if you are already in your purpose . Walk into every room like you are naturally already in your purpose, even if you have to fake it a little. Your purpose is bigger than, popularity, money, or other peoples opinions.

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BOUJEE TIP OF THE DAY:

Spend the next 3-6 focusing on everything you want out of life. Improve yourself and let go of the past. Get that new car, go finish that degreee, go on that date you’ve been putting off, and whatever else is needed. Take that leap of faith and first foot foward, on the best and final new version of yourself. Its a scary and long road, but I promise you’ll be proud of it and the memories it comes with.

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